January 2012
2 posts
“ain’t got no time for part-time lovin in my life.”
– t-boz “baby baby baby”
ubuntu: a connectedness
Ubuntu: “I am what I am because of who we all are.”
A person with Ubuntu is open and available to others, affirming of others, does not feel threatened that others are able and good, based from a proper self-assurance that comes from knowing that he or she belongs in a greater whole and is diminished when others are humiliated or diminished, when others are tortured or oppressed....
December 2011
10 posts
“How in the hell am I going to make my teammates better by practicing?”
– Allen Iverson
i'm waiting on that
i’m waiting on that…
the peace within can’t be shaken-ness.
i have no doubt he’s for me-ness.
the i know i’m the badd-est.
not on just some days but err-day.
and i know it’s coming.
you ever find yourself adjusting yourself based off of how other people are acting? for instance, we’ve all had that situation where someone walks in the room and you can...
yes!
i get it… this school life i’m currently living = politics. and i haate politics.
less politics next semester though. good livin. more learnin. more creativity. more lovin. more of everything that’s good.
late night/early morning thoughts: part 1
geez.. can i let me live?
“finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest,...”
– philipians 4:8
get a life
i came to the realist conclusion tonight. and even though the conclusion is slightly depressing for several reasons, it makes me soooo excited to have some sort of tangible solution to some of the problems that have been swooping in and out of my life. my problems are hardly ever isolated. it’s a pattern… some lesson you juuuust have.not.yet learned yet even though the problems are...
i used to crave him
*dedicated to a man i used to love several years ago.
i used to crave him.
his words, his rhyme
his intellect, his reserve
his frame, his smile
his sex-uality
his stim-ulation
his freshness, his flyness
his way of making the mundane
more than
his caring, flashes of naked sensitivity
his inner struggles, the outer manifestation
his passion, his depth
his weakness close behind
his...
November 2011
13 posts
less stressin, more joy
taking on too much at one time is all-consuming… something i have no time for. i’ve been trying to figure out too much of my life at once, trying to plan, anticipate and resolve every issue that arises and it’s been unfair to me. not only have i tried to figure out everything, i’ve tried to do it based on what other ppl say and think… therefore, on their terms. well...
i'm thankful for...
it’s thanksgiving… you know the drill! but i will be working especially hard to do this AT LEAST once a week. it’s tootally necessary to count my blessings as much as possible.
i’m thankful for:
my health, my life
my mom and my dad
my status as a grad student
my home, my bed (both at home home and at school)
my roomie!
my true friends— both old and new
...
“When we first got married, we made a pact. It was this: In our life together,...”
– Albert Einstein
"it needs no outside reassurance"
I read the most beautiful thing the other day and it was so inspiring that I wanted to share. My friend is in India and she came to the conclusion that she couldn’t truly explain what India was like. She wouldn’t do it justice and she had come to terms with it. Instead she said:
“…India understands itself, and it needs no outside reassurance… It has a purpose, a...
“start from where you are. wishing for a different past will only waste your...”
– ralph marston
“a lot of great things come out of messy, complicated situations because...”
– kitty on brothers and sisters
who you are v. what you do
i’ve had some interesting things happen in my life lately. my perception of things have turned upside down because i realize i’m evolving and searching for more certainty in as many areas of my life as possible. it’s caused me to sacrifice a few things because i need to gain more clarity. i wholeheartedly believe that you can’t really enjoy or really receive something...
just a couple of nuggets
you will please some people, you will disappoint some people. in the end, all you can do is live for yourself because it’s you that has to live with it all.
take things day by day, moment by moment if need be. no need to get overwhelmed. God is in control. trust Him.
a vision to hold on to
i just read my emo post from last time. smh. i need to do better.. cleeearly lol. but like mary j blige said in one of my favorite songs of hers
“when you’re feeling down, youuu should neever fake it.”
<3 that line.
i don’t talk about what i do much. it’s because i want anonymity.. but i feel like i’m doing myself and ya’ll a disservice by focusing...
sometimes you have to get downright tired
guess who’s exhausted?
me.
i do the most. at all times. and i’m sooo tired of it. im pooped. i’m exhaaausted. i really have no more energy to handle the mess that i create. the more i try to patch things up, the more i spiral and compound upon a trainwreck. you ever look at yourself while you’re in the midst of doing something, you take a moment to think “hm, this...
October 2011
1 post
got dreams? get purpose.
man oh man. my life.
my prayer this week originates from romans 12. i’m trying to find my purpose, my gift. what is it that i have to give this world? am i to show mercy? give encouragement? or am i to serve, to teach… to prophesize? do i do these things in the form of a career, or will it be completely separate? is it ever really possible to separate these parts of yourself? ...
September 2011
3 posts
all i want is everything.
i… want so much.
a career, a mate, wonderful kids (when i’m ready), time to spare, time to canoodle, my parents there to see my kids grow up, stability, certainty where it matters most, understanding, entrepreneurship, creative outlets, a beautiful living space, to know what i want, sleeep, humor, fun, purpose, to make a difference, consistent friends, deep conversations, a space that...
flight club
i’m sitting in this airport and, as usual, i have no idea what i’m about to write. i feel like i’ve been doing this a lot lately. i just want to write something but i don’t get a lot of time to do so… and frankly, i kind of forgot i had a tumblr til now. real talk.
but yea, soo my flight has been delayed. i still don’t know the reason why really… i...
blessed
waddya know… i’m typing without a topic in mind. sorry that’s a lie. i have things on my mind, but i’m blogging now to kill some time before my 11pm cut-off. i just feel really blessed and i want to take some time to reflect on the things that i’m thankful for
- the ability to go to school and the opportunity to do well as a result
- sunny days
- texts from...
listen to me giiiiirl
i definitely don’t have any time to write this… but i’m going to make the time.
i’m listening to “chante’s got a man” over and over again and i’m reminded of how much i love that song. i love talking about men. good men. great partnerships. as a society, we get so hung up on thinking that we can’t have good, healthy relationships with mates....
August 2011
11 posts
dun dun dunnnn
it’s only been a couple of days back but all i can say is
jesus take the wheel!
he disappoints
a throwback. one of my first pieces of poetry
He disappoints
Like unexpected rain at a water park
Like a sock with no pair
Like a chocolate cookie with no chips
Like a hoop with no net
It’s OK but just shy from enough
Far from acceptable
He disappoints
Like an unexpected phone call
Sad news and like
a pillow with no pillow case
Raw, unprotected
Like an open book that lacks...
reading fiction can change your personality →
to procrastinate or not to procrastinate
“time is your most valuable asset.”
i have sooo much to do and what am i doing? procrastinating and blogging. smh. i saw that quote earlier today and really realized that the inefficient use of time can cripple you as a growing person.
i think about things i have to do and make lists and think about how great and relaxed i’ll feel when i’m done. i beat myself up when...
settling is passe
disclaimer: i apologize in advance for my long ass sentences and convoluted sentence structures. i did minimal editing cuz, as i’ve said before, i’m trying to get away from this perfectionism thing.
i read this somewhere and i’ve firmly held onto this belief ever since:
“what you settle for is what you end up with.”
no i’m not strictly talking about being...
no room
i’m really feeling this beyonce cd. omg where has this been all my life??
i may be young but i’m readay
life has been throwin me all kinds of curve balls lately, it’s kind of crazy. not terrible stuff, but enough to keep me on my toes, to keep me alert, and to keep me thanking God for the process. i’ve been reminded who my true friends are, what things make me dance no...
“Semicolon clooosed parenthesis”
July 2011
13 posts
shut up and chill
i don’t really have a topic in mind, so i’m just gonna freestyle it. i’m at this point in my life where things can be a little messy. not drama-filled messy but… the kind where you trust that no matter what things look like from the outside, it’s all ok. really. you know how people who are a little messy always say the same thing? it’s like “yea this room...
four letter word
i spent all this time earlier crafting a post. i was writing about it off and on all day and the whole time, i was having second thoughts about posting it. i guess me losing it means that it wasn’t meant to be. not like that anyway
i’ve been thinking about love. what it is, what it means, what it looks like. people aren’t perfect, but love’s perfect. how does that work...
a little bit of everything? ev-er-ything.
omg my mind has been mush ever since i walked through the door. i dont even think i locked it. now im in my bed eatin phish food like it’s the best thing since sliced bread (it is.. it might be.. why do people say that anyway? whats so revolutionary about a slice of bread? did people used to eat straight loaves out of their hands or somethin?)
but no you’d think i had an issue. i...
"great, now my stapler has SARS." →
intu-deep
i’m reading this article in oprah about intuition. i’m sure oprah would rather you BUY her magazine, but she got enough money comin in.
*ahem* hold up, lemme take a sip of this water real quick.. get these juices going. yea yea i’m paraphrasing for the moment (AGAIN these are NOT MY original ideas… not mine… gracias) but i’ll definitely have my take as i...