i’m reading this article in oprah about intuition. i’m sure oprah would rather you BUY her magazine, but she got enough money comin in.
*ahem* hold up, lemme take a sip of this water real quick.. get these juices going. yea yea i’m paraphrasing for the moment (AGAIN these are NOT MY original ideas… not mine… gracias) but i’ll definitely have my take as i respond.
intuition.
1. that subconscious feeling you get when you meet someone? trust it.
2. it was easier to trust our intuition back in the day sans this technology.
3. quiet time helps to enforce a strong intuition. 15 minutes a day is sufficient.. it keeps you in touch with yourself.
4. keep a notebook tallying your first impressions of things/people/places/ideas then check back later and see how often you were right.
5. confusion isn’t always bad. it may just be a way to stop you from making a wrong move. big decisions should only come with clarity— not blind impulsiveness.
so.. thoughts? i’ve been having this battle within myself about my intuition— that’s why the whole focus on “let[ting] your intuition be your guide” is just very intriguing to me. i get “feelings” all the time about people and about things. i especially encounter them when i’m forming personal, casual relationships with people. if i ever get a bad feeling, in the back of my head i kind of write them off like jaleel white’s career. or if they remind me of a past person who i didn’t quite hit it off with, i encourage myself to learn from that past mistake and move on to greener pastures. but then i started thinking (and ruminating, as i tend to do when i can think of nothing better to do)… i’m not perfect. in fact, i have on blinders and i also have trust issues. when, if ever, are these quick gutteral reactions unfounded and based on some comfortable, blind habit that serves to hinder you rather than uplift you?
for instance, people don’t like to do certain things because it makes them feel uncomfortable. they think “if i step out of this box, i’ll die.” but even if they do step out and find themselves entangled in a mess, it certainly doesn’t mean it’s end of the world. i always think about my psych teacher who would say “will you remember this bad thing in one month, one year, five years?” even if the answer is “yes,” it comes down to this:
shouldn’t you trust this feeling of impending doom because you’ve trusted it before and it was right? no. why? bc that feeling was not intuition, that was fear that won.
you’ve probably heard this quote by henry ford, “whether you believe you can or believe you can’t, you are right.” it’s true. usually when i think i suck, it shows and then people around me start to feel the same. i mean, they would never say it bc they may not truly want to buy into it, but people can feel your energy and even if they can’t really put it into words how they feel, they subconsciously pick up on and co-sign with how you perceive yourself. it’s dangerous the mind is. but it’s a double edged sword that can cut in your favor, if you let it.
but i’m all off track. intuition right? i don’t have much more to say because i’m currently in the process of trying to make sure i’m in touch with my intuition and not in touch w its evil step sister fear that often claims that it’s my natural guide. to combat that b, i’ll do what the article suggested: make notes of first impressions, take 15 minutes of quiet time a day. and i’ll add my own. i’ll turn off my phone for a set period of time each day. i have a weird dependence/nondependence relationship with my phone. when i have it on and have nothing else solid to focus on, i’m on it cooonstantly. when i have other things to do and i make a very conscious decision to do them, i can put it on the backburner— then i run back to it after completing my tasks like a mother runs to pick up her child after the kid’s fallen and jacked up her knee. the kid doesn’t even start crying until the mom starts crying.
i’ll even throw in my computer’s internet, because even though i often think of it as the better option, it’s still a major distraction. so many evenings i have dreams to take over the world, but then i’m reduced to a netflix tv series. i’m also going to write down my dreams again. one of my greatest tools even in the midst of craziness and continuous distractions is my ability to dream at night, remember my dreams and learn from them as if they were real life lessons. i have to cultivate that. i can’t lose that.
so the moral is i’m cutting off all things for a brief period each day to take time to reflect on things flowing from within me. i’m going to do it and pray that my discipline is strong so that the benefits i reap are sweet.
- lucky 13
next blog: perfectionism… and how if i didn’t make a small pact to myself that i would just cut my losses, type and publish this post without proofreading it first, there would be no post.
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i’m lying. i definitely went back and proofread this bout 8 times.
